Holocron Entry 16

I promised you guys a proper intro about me.. So here goings nothing!!
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I'm Andriee JainaSolo (It's not my real name of course, duh!) and I'm gonna be 16 in 7 months!! Isn't that awesome?!! I love Star Wars! It's the best movie(s) ever made!! Sometimes I feel lonely because people don't understand me and I like to have fun all the time!
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The X-Wing series taught me many things that I can apply to daily life. I <3>

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I'm having best friend issues due to something unfortunately dumb that took place yesterday but I think that right now, my best buddy is Joshua! He's a Star Wars fan too. I still remember how we met: It was during a boring Design and Technology lesson and I was doodling TIE fighters on my worksheets while chatting with another awesome friend, Jordon, and Joshua pretty much borrowed my worksheet with the TIE fighter drawing on it and added a Death Star to my doodle.. We didn't become instant friends yet but I felt a connection to him.. I dunno but usually when I get this feeling I know that that person will become a best friend in the end. I had that same feeling with Denise and Amanda, two Primary school friends (who I sadly say have gotten distant with..) but we eventually because best friends.

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I had a mini argument with him a month back but everything is cool now. Cos I solved the issue diplomatically with no X-Wing squadrons and Mon Calamari cruisers attacking Joshua's house (at least I think I did not unknowingly send a fleet.. or did I??). So we're cool and he's the bestest friend any Star Wars fan could have!!

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Cos this is what we talk about on a random day:

*I'm taking down notes in class*

Joshua: WEDGE IS COOL!!

Me: CORRAN IS COOLER!

And we'll start arguing who is cooler!

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Or in PE lesson last year:

Teacher: *scolding us for not running in volleyball* So you want the world to explode than you'll run issit?!!

Me: *to Joshua* She didn't purchase a Death Star so the world can't explode!!

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I have other friends too but the list is to long to type out. So may be you'll get to find out more about me in future posts?? And I promise that no more vulgarities such as the F-word with appear in them.. Well, at least I try to vent my anger with proper words, I hope..

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Another important fact about me:

I BECAME A STAR WARS FAN 4 DAYS BEFORE MY 13TH BIRTHDAY!!

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Awesome isn't it! And I'm reading Heir to the Empire right now. It's an awesome book! Totally keeps me glued.

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So I'll be back here again soon.. Hopefully really really soon cos I wanna let you all know more about me! Cos I'm too AWESOME!! Lalalalalaaaaa... Hehehe! :D

P. S. Sorry about the ( ` )s in my posts. Blogger did not allow me to leave lines and I had to leave lines if not this whole post will look like a block of white paint on my mum's toilet bowl cover!

I prefer Chicken Wings to the Drumsticks!!

Holocron Entry 15

I'm back because I wanna announce something:

MY BLOG IS NO LONGER PRIVATE!!

Now anyone can see it! AWESOME, Isn't it?!

Yay! So now, yall can pop by anytime or slide pass it if you guys like. I'll try to use less vulgarities too. I also remembered that I did not do a proper introduction of myself on my first post due to some anger management problems, so I was thinking of doing one now.. after my lunch and homework and comic-drawing, I will.

Then I should have used to word later.. Well, whatever!

HAVE FUN ALL DAY FOLLOW BLOGGERS AND STAR WARS FANS AND MARTIANS AND WHAT-NOTS!!!!

Hehehe. I'm feeling a little happy today and I don't know why. :D

Holocron Entry 15

Oh my gosh!! It's Sunday... And I've not started on my homework!

Well, it's still morning so I have plenty of time to do it.. As least I think I do unless my dad decided to take us out of Japanese food like every other Sunday. Except Sunday where Republic Gunship come flying in destroying droids around my house.. Just kidding! Really, you believed that? Congratulations, you've becomeas obsessed with Star Wars as me.

I'm being very random cos I'm usually still asleep in the morning of weekends but strangely not today...

So.. Another important issue to cover today:
Should I let my blog be visible to all?? I really don't know. There are good and bad things of doing so though...

Like, I can let other Star Wars fans read it and I can make new friends from around the world (Star Wars fans most likely) but that means I have to reduce on vulgarities usage (that stinks..) and I have to edit some posts which contains some things that I should not say... And that'll make my blog seem rather fake.

So I still really dunno. Waddya think? Wait, I forgot, this blog is private there's no point asking air.

HELP ME THINK JAINA SOLO!!!!

Rogue Eleven out.

P.S. I wanted to say more but I can't think of anything that's not random to say. Hmmm.. I might be back later, you never know!

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Holocron Entry 14

I'm kinda bored now. My POA tuition finished about 30mins ago and I think I kinda learnt that Appropriation Chapter a little. Now I just gotta practice the format thingy.. (If only I had time)..

People dun believe that I have no time for stuff. They expect everything to be handed in on time and shit. Dude, I'm got homework to do, comic to draw, TV to watch, computer games to play, sleep to get, and fun to have. I think that sounds confusing but you know what I mean! Gaah, the nerve of some people (teachers..).

This weeks been normal. Nothing much that falls under the catergory of "Interesting" or "Particularly Enjoyable". It's just lesson after lesson after lesson. But they is one thing that made me furious..

FOOD RATIONING.

Motherfuckin' hell. All they gave us on Friday was a lump of hard Sweet Potato and a packet of biscuits. I usually eat a plate of rice and once in a while with a bottle or cup of juice.. How could I possibly be full?!! And there's this fuckin teacher that didn't allow me to buy a canned drink. Wish I could have said: "FUCK YOU! GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY, BASTARD~!" Hahahaaa, then I would be exiled or suspended. Of course, I'm not daring enough to to that but I did cause quite a bit of commotion and several students did try their luck after me. SHOW 'EM KIDS, CRUSH THE SCHOOL SERVANTS' ASSES!!! Whahahahaaa....

And we had a fire drill.. Not much. We have fire drills every year. I saved my Star Wars book as always. My english teacher was like 0__O when she saw me take my book with me to the parade ground. Haha.. LOL.

'Heir to the Empire' is very important, ya know! Almost every Star Wars fan who follows the Expanded Universe books, comics, etc.. would talk about it. And I finally found it in Borders. Any way, the fire drill exercise thought me how to save my Star Wars fast!

I'M SO OBSESSSED WITH STAR WARS!! It's the Best Sci-Fi EVER!!

Um.. So I think that's all I have to share today. And just a reminder to you kids and teenagers in school: BRING HOME FOOD FOR FOOD RATIONING DAY IF YOU DON"T WANNA PISS IN YOUR PANTS LIKE ME!!

Rogue Eleven out.

I kinda wanna be Rogue Eleven in Rogue Squadron cos I think that's Jaina's number. I haven't started reading the New Jedi Order yet... I'm SOOOOOOOOO behind time.. Waddaya expect? I only became a fan 3 years ago. And Star Wars is the addiction of mine that has lasted the longest (longer than Code Lyoko) and is still ongoing cos the galaxy on the other side is just too brilliant and amazing!!

Holocron Entry 13

I'm so tired!! We had PE two days in a row, Yesterday and Monday. Those stupid PE teachers are only after the Fitness Award. Not everyone is fit.. I wonder who created such an award, those under-nourished and plum kids and so pityful it seems, having to put in more effort than others in running... Not forgetting kids that get breathless easily (like me) and kids that have flat feet (Damn, like me again). I'm kinda unlucky when it comes to PE, doncha think??

Speaking of running, we had to run around our school (at one point we have to cut around the school soccer field, though). Guess how many round we were made to run?? Guess!! One? No. Two? Nah... What?!! Fuck! You saying... THREE?? YES.

And that's why my feet is feeling a little numb and my calf muscles hurt whenever I walk cos if the slight bending action thing with the ankle thing.. (You get what I mean??)

Ooh!! A classmate I hardly talk 20 words to just asked me something on Facebook.. And we chatted. By the way, he's actually friendly and probably fun. Though I can tell he is stressed a little by to much work. Once again, like me. I wish him all the best in everything he wanna accomplish! Yea.

I like making friends.

Well, I gotta go sleep now. It's about 2am!!! Gosh, and I got school! LOL.

May the Force be with you!!!

Edited on 13 February 2010: Gotta edit what needs editing right??

Holocron Entry 12

"Today is Sunday. And on Sunday.."

I remember that Ulrich from this cartoon, Code Lyoko said that when he and his friends were having some sort of conversation in one of them's room. I still like Code Lyoko even though now it seems a little lame to me. It was what kept the friendship I had with Denise going even though we got separated.

It's been quite a good Chinese New Year, it turns out. Joshua invited me to his house on the second day and I had lunch there. The atmosphere was very welcoming. For once, I felt welcome to a person's home on Chinese New Year. I encountered some difficulty while arriving, mainly cos Joshua chose to take the "short-cut" (some short-cut is was..) and i slipped a little in the mud. He's short-cut was a steep slope down into the playground that was beside his flat. And I didn't know it was that steep.. I had some balancing problems so I dirtied myslef quite a bit.

And it amazing me that Joshua's kitchen toilet has no soap for a clean-up. LOL. Any how, I got clean and I scrubbed most of the dirt out of my slippers (good thing I didn't wear the new shoes I bought recently).

We ate something called 'steamboat' (that's the English meaning. I dunno the Chinese one) and it was kinda good. I didn't know how the whoel thing works at first (I'm very not Chinese) and Joshua's mum had to help (sits there wide-eyed and trying not to be a disturbance) me dish out the cooked food from the giant steamer in the centre of the table. And it was yummy and I never new Joshua could eat that much since he usually eats really little (sometimes not at all) during recess in school and at Jordon's house.

We played computer games after that. It was a lot of fun!! We played Boxhead, Cooperative mode and we scored up to 156 million together! I actually didn't really take much interest in that game in the past but it's actually fun if you play if with a friend.

All in all, it was a great Friday. I wonder if we could do it again next year but I don't wanna trouble Joshua's parents and my mum's not gonna have it.

Looks like next year's Chinese New Year will be as fucked up as the rest but i'll never forget this year's. Joshua can be a really good friend if he managed his friendship-ness right.

The weekends been quiet, if you ask me. 'Though, it gave me plenty of time to catch up on my comic. I'm currently at page 106!! YEA!!!!

Til the next time I'm free cos the coming week is gonna be hectic with Art Club on Monday and VA Program on every other day of my "already-tiring-like-hell" week.

Holocron Entry 11

Edit on 13 February 2010: I want to make my blog with I've been hiding for more than a month, visible to all people on Earth, Mars and beyond!!

Holocron Entry 10

I feel so betrayed. Chinese New Year helped me see things from another perspective. A perspective that's so ugly and distasteful. It showed me the truth about everything and it's the ugly truth. I rather keep living the fantasy. Being happy and contented in my imaginary bubble. But sooner or later the truth will always come to light.

I don't even know who are my truth friends any more. I feel so lost. When I'm a need to help, no one comes. And Joshua whom has become my bestest friends after we forgave each other, I don't know he any more. It that his real personality? Was everything in school, all that fun and joy, all a lie? I thought he was like me, just different in a world of his own. Trying his best to fit in though he knows subconsciously that he never will. Never giving up and still putting a smile on his face when things go wrong..

Was that all a lie? I show people my true self because I want people to accept me for who I am and not for some mask that some people prefer to hide behind. Chinese New Year reveals everything. Everything unpleasant.

I try my best to fit it. I really do. My relatives know that I'm a bit different but that's just me. I have already tried covering myself in layer and layer and personalities that people prefer but what good does that do? You'll be all a lie? An illusion. Nothing. Just another passing face in the crowd. I just can't fit in. I've tried and I give up. I don't want to try any more.

If you can't except me for who i am then I suggest to leave me alone. I can be happy on my own. In my own world wrapped by a virtual piece of velvet that separates the truth from my fantasy.

If only people would understand how I feel and open up to me and be my true friend. That's all I can ever ask for to be part of what binds every sentient being together. Please don't leave me out. May be I will keep trying and one day, I will be able to touch the edges of that imaginary velvet and enter the realm and be excepted.

The Human race can be so cruel at times. But I believe that I'm not alone...

Holocron Entry 9

I'm so sleepy but I don't feel like sleeping.

I was right, today was a half day. No lessons. My class helped wrap food hampers for the needy people in our school for a hour before the close to two hour long performance. The performance was quite okay, I guess. Some parts were really boring, like the quiz part. The MCs asked the audience stupid questions such as "Name me three red things" because apparently red symbolises Chinese New Year. And there were people from my side in the school hall were yelling "underwear". LOL!

Another bad part about the whole event was that the teachers seperated my friends from me. That's on disadvantage of having only male friends because the school teachers always want the boys to sit infront and the girls behind. And I can't be the girl sitting directly behind the boys because they want as to sit according to our index numbers. And I'm number 1. And it stinks cos people expect you to know everything and be serious in studys and score well cos teachers see your marks first as you names right on top. But I dun care. I wanna learn cos I truly want to and I wanna have fun will I'm at it and not be afraid to miss out info teachers give cos when you have many friends in class, you will end up knowing that bit of infomation any way!

We had to wear our class tee though. And almost half the class bought a size to big (like me). Someone told as the T-Shirt would be the same size as our PE T-shirt but it turned out to be a size bigger than the size of our PE T-shirt. Like size S (for PE tee) is size M (for class tee)!! In my situation, I bought L size when I'm an M. So my class tee looks like a mini dress when I looked at myself in the mirror at home. It went down to the middle of my thighs and that's too long!! And I had to wear it to school today but the good thing is my school skirt kinda helped "hold up" my class tee and I only reached 1/3 of my thigh. Quite an improvement, doncha think?

Oh, hang on. Joshua messaged me on Facebook....

Recently Joshua improved a little. He still follows me around but I find it hard to teach him sociall skills (I tried, okay!). He is useful when I get angry cos he listens when I complain and rant and yell (a little bit) and when I want someone to accompany me to McDonalds for tea time. And he helps "chope (?)" (How to spell?) the swings at the playground for me whcih comes in handy when I'm too lazy to run the the park and grab the swing froma random kid/teenager.

*Yawn* I'm really sleepy... Since today's a half day, I think I'll go take a nap when I'm done talking with Joshua on Facebook.

P.S. Today, after the performance, Joshua and I went to McDonald's for brunch and we saw our D&T teacher. Eating near her table felt weird. LOL.